no new friends.

i'm really tough on my friends. correction: im really tough on new friends. it's like i put them through boot camp to see if they can really hang. and truthfully, very few can.  and it's not their fault. it's me.

i judge. alot. i judge alot. i expect people to live up to my expectations of what it means to be a friend and i know that's insane. yet i can't-- nay--- i haven't stopped myself from doing that.

my sister thinks it's bc we have a super close relationship and im comparing everyone to her (she be feelin herself, yeah). im sure there's some truth to that. but i think it's moreso that 'ride-or-die' mindset- you got the jugs to hang with this nut? you best bring it. and if you can't...hope you got pics.