and another one bites my ass

so i like to think im cool. but there are moments in my life that makes me rethink my "coolness". that moment happened today. like now. like 2 minutes ago. i proposed a "platonic" thing with this guy i was dating. and he agreed (doh!).

that wasn't suppose to happen. what was suppose to happen? he was suppose to be convinced of my greatness and the mere idea of being platonic with me would make him cringe. but i guess it didn't. and i guess he didnt think i was so great. ok, fine. but he's wrong.

i think highly of myself. like i really really like myself. and actually entertain the idea of dating me...but in a not so freaky way. but i accept these ego-checker moments. but then again, its really not. see, my ego stems solely on what i think of me. and not my money, clothes, job, friends, lovers etc. so even if someone doesnt agree on how great i am ( damn fools, i say), i just accept that they are idiots. and will soon "get it". got me?

so my moment of solace? sharing this w/ my colleague/ friend. his response: "get a fuck'n life" (verbatim) and then he typed away at his computer.

[shrugs] and thats what i plan to do...after i apply some neosporin on my ass.

im outta control

ive been listening to kenna's "out of control" and my ego is startin to feel out of control...and unlike kenna, i do care what is happening...sorta. i mean, im suppose to, right? so yeah...sure, i am.

i think.

[ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGhoRO7LYfE ] great song, huh? i like kenna. i mean clearly brotha can't sing worth shyt. but he's cute and believes he can sing...or doesn't care... which makes him dope. so go kenna! let's go out or somethin.

but yeah, its a slow work day and i dont really have anything to talk about. but my ego allows me to think this note is worth your time.